A year & now

okay...this blog is definitely dedicated to my dearest friends n family........1st of all tq so much for being my side...supporting me...encouraging me....it's really been  a hard time to go thru stuff since my dad pass away....looking back of wht i have deal with...all these challenges were actually not so bad lar....i survive at it...so...YAY~!!!! n thru this process...i really learn how to be better & learn to grow up a little more.... when challenges come....it tends to think it as an opportunity to grow and develop into a better person....so....think more positive thoughts of course...

n on the 11/12/2012/ ....it's been a year since dad left....kinda miss him all the jokes n everything...he's a good dad i admit....although things happen & last time used to hate him for his bad character ...but nah....that's gonna pass.....he's really a good one if we dun look at the negative side of him....& on the same day of this year..... it's was the 1st day of my finals starts......i was excited for it...n was happy....seriously...no tears ok...~ bt all i felt was.....i will make u proud papa....n will continue with this spirit.....

so...that's its....much gratitude to those who have really being my true friends.........tqvm guys n gurls! i luv you.....

Our Taiping half day trip

hmm....it was always bored in Kampar & there's not much that we can do in here....n so i need a quick getaway ....as adventurous as i can be.... i wanna visit some interesting place...so...i choose to follow my friend back to his hometown to have a look... For additional places to visit you can refer to my 2nd part :Things to see in Taiping

Location: Taiping town
day: 30/11/2012

depart: 7am frm Kampar 

reach: 9.30 am in Taiping area.

so we started off our journey from Kampar where we follow our friend going back to his hometown for the weeks before the final exams.... n thanks for being our tour guide & driving us around for the half day... :)

our journey started when we reach Taiping was to have breakfast...n so my friend bring us to the old town where some food stalls are located. It was nearby to HuaLian sch if i was mistaken and also nearby to the Taiping lake as well...n as usual in Perak area,Taiping accepts coupons for the car parking too...so we park there for 30 min to hunt for good food....Then i notice there's a food stall there selling mee basah which kinda looks nice n we ordered. hmm...as expected...it really taste good ~!!!... then the guys doesn't fill full for it...so we ordered another plate of Chu Cheong Fun...n the taste was acceptable...cause it's something alike with the Penang flavour & the lady boss put the fried onions as the topping ..taste sweet n savory i guess...haha...nt bad afterall...n compare to Kampar style ...i like Taiping style better...,n in Kampar Chu Cheong Fun is either put curry sauce or some soy sauce at it....for me...Seremban was still the best thou... anways...while driving around the town area my friend told us that in Taiping there are many things tht were 1st build here, like the clock tower & train railway, roundabout at the hills....n in Taiping...all the buildings only can build up to 5 story tall...not more than that cause they dunwan to destroy the scenery...n why isit call Taiping?? well my version of the story is...u can refer to the Malaysian Histroy textbook..hahaha... it's state that there are 2 gangs of chinese tribe fighting that time...n so...when they stop the fighting thingy...calming things n sorting things out was it was declared to ppl that we need to be 'tai ping' (Peaceful)..so i guess this is how they get the name...

Mee basah

Taiping Chu Cheong Fun

  After filling up our stomach, the 1st place we went is the Taiping Zoo.... whee.... it's been a long time since i saw some live animals...haha...i must admit that...when you're little ur parents sure bring u to places like this...but for me...i don't remember a thing of wht i have seen being a little kid... for it's entrance fees it charges for Rm12 per adult but we manage to get a 30% off cause of my friend were a Taiping Citizens...Yay~~ RM 8 per adult only... in the Zoo...there were many different kinds of animals.. n to complete the route there are 2 options for us to choose for...either u choose to sit the cart drive by the guide or if u choose to walk ...be prepared for a journey of 2 1/2 hours walking to complete the tour n taking some photos of course...at 1st, i thought zoo wun be taking such a long time but den...i was wrong...hahaha ><

our Taiping Zoo ticket

me & zach( our tour guide) thanks.. XD

danny & Soo Jek

haha...i was trying to camwhore...but there are ppl walking behind me......

haha...look..croc behind me...

the guys are eventually too attracted lookin at the beaver..

finally the guys are tired after walking for 1 hours more....i keep strolling in the zoo..

just when i thought it was end.....no...it wasn't...><

after our Zoo trip ended, my friend suggested we have a look at the Museum, but too bad...it's Friday n it's not open...oh well..i think that usually museum don't really open on fridays cause the malays have their Friday prayers?? i remember the last time i went Penang, the museum was closed on friday too...haha...coincidence?? so..next stop was the Taiping Lake of course...just went there to have a glance...really never had a chance to complete walking the lake cause there are nothing much but the scenery.... n not to mention...it's a good place for photography...i really did love the tree thou...haha..

Taiping lake...just a part of it only...

the trees along the road beside the lake...nice eh??

The next stop would be lunch of course....n this time i really have no ideas wht's this place called  but there are many food stalls here...n there are a few supermarket 'The Store' was nearby... n out of the food here...there's one special store tht sells fish ball fried koay teow.... was kinda nice n different too...n at the end of the food store...there's bunch of ice stalls that sells variety of fruit flavor+ ice shaving.... ahh.....just wht i needed to chill in the hot day of adventure...

fishball fried koay teow..

By the time we finish out lunch it's ald about 2pm...n we need to leave by 4pm.. after buying the bus ticket at  Kamunting station we went strolling at Taiping Sentral mall& Tesco for 1 hour more due to the time constraint that we had....so...that's how we ended our half day Taiping trip...n yeap...for u guys might be wondering how we go back kampar....we sit the bus from Kamunting to Ipoh medan kidd bus station..n from there take Kampar bus back .....

i had a good time with my friends n of course tired out cause of the journey....but still enjoyable lorh.... XD

It's still hard to let go~

today ...it's the 8th month since my dad past away....i miss him deeply...my tears automatically fall down when i think of him.....i just can't control it...i know u guys keep tell me....be strong n so on...but....i just hate the feeling...it's hard to control n hard to accept tht the loss in my life is hard to cure at the moment....
but remembering someone u love n respect is a gud thing rite??? should i choose to forget??? my ans would be... i dun want too.....

then come to think about it...argh...why 11th always fall on saturday most of the time for this year??? i feel suffocated dealing this day every month.....the day he left was 11th....but the time i always contact with him was on every saturday....at this point...i really miss his voice ...telling me to study hard....dun over stress... n also all those lame jokes that we used to talk about.... haihz..... i know...i can't do it with him anymore...

some say...when times pass it will get better n better....for me....it's still kinda ok....things do get better....but it doesn't mean i don't miss my dad..... i dun dare to mention much in front of my family cause i scared it will make them feel sad about it...i scared they will break down when they remember it....

mum always tell me....when things left in the past...just let it go that way....dun always think about it....but....for me...it was a great memory....even if i cry....i don't think it's wrong.....it's just a emotion of missing him badly....after a gud cry....i still live my life in a gud way...

anyways...felt better after crying and blogging about this.... don't worry guys...i'm ok....i just miss him~...

When boys meet girls~

When talking about this topic....pls do not feel offended with the content ....it's just my personal view point....things that i have observed....

when a boy meet a girl...the girl that he likes....he will really put much effort in it....but how bout things after he succeed??? most of the times...guys will not be as caring as the last time he would(when he was chasing you)...u gotta admit that...it was the most enjoyed...n the sessions love by girls....but...when times pass by in this relationship....things could change and the commitment in the relationship can be getting lesser and lesser.... n my the questions that play in my mind is...wht is LOVE??? any definition for it?? any rules that need to be follow??? how long can it last????

in my opinion...loving a person can last for a lifetime.....but why could ppl stop loving each others???
the answer would be....when they can't understand each other....n misunderstood keep appearing in the scene of life...

a boy will always says.....why are girls so complicated.....but,

a girl will always think....why doesn't my guy care anymore?? why he is totally diff from the person i 1st meet??

as true it is...guys doesn't realize that....they did care...n put much effort in it for the beginning.....but they stop doing it....or lazy to continue such affection for the long term...
but girls in the other way....love to be loved n pay attention all the times...they just wan their lover give them....all their time.....haha...but too bad....u can have it all~!!!

when boys n girls can't meet up to the standard procedures....things started to change a little worst....

girls intend to cry every month just for him...

but guys never give a shit~... still continue wht he was doing all the time...

dear guys....do u know that....that girl u chase...that girl holding ur hand...is the girl waiting for u most of the time.....that girl is the girl which is willing to sacrifice even more than she ever did for her family....she do it just for u.....

why girls do that???  they just hope that ....u will treat her better....treat her like the way u used to treat her in the beginning....n be better than that.....

eventually girls wishes are just simple...they just hope...u care every details she give.....give her respond n reaction about it....

n to dear girls.....do you know that....guys do love you...but they are just busy...n.....they like to give excuses....or maybe u think he was lying about things...or hiding some secret...n for sure...u can't have him for 24/7 everyday....duh....therefore....dun spend so much times focusing on him...have your own personal life....dun let ur guy take over ur life...waiting for someone to respond is just gonna be heartache in the end...
n pls pls pls pls.....do know that...guys have lower EQ than girls...most of the hints u give him...he can't get it...so...just tell him directly lar....haha.....that way....things wouldn't be complex rite....hahaha

every couple....sure have arguments on something...so...dun worry....as long as u love each other...things will work out no matter how hard the situation will be.... just give some times out... lots of patience...and understanding about each other.... 

P.s: girls...u might cry n sobbing about how ur guys mistreated you...but....seriously...he never think he mistreated you..... it's just the high hopes that u put on them are still doesn't know by them yet....most of the boys doesn't get wht girls wants~!!!!!

it's august~

scary and worry when time flies this quick this time.....it's august 2012....it's been the 2nd sem of my 2nd year.....OMG...damn fast...n soon it's gonna be my exam....haihz.......worry for this sem subj as it's quite tough.....n hardly to bear with it...anways...life still goes on n the level of maturity have increase more since he left.....

my dad....have left me for almost 9 months....those funny and precious will still be in my mind.....although miss him sometimes...i just intend to cry it out to feel better....nothing's feel better than a good cry for it.....i miss him much.....

back to reality nw...i wonder why the university student are getting worst in behavior......some of them are pissing me off for incomplete assignment...argue n tell them also no use.....still will be acting the same way......i swear will not use them for any work again....really feel angry when there's is due date...n everyone is waiting for their work....haihz......why uni students are getting so lazy??? really fed up with this kind of attitude...... 

other than that....hehehe...happy for my beloved baby boy who's  going to finish study soon....dun have to suffer study like me d....need to go to work n earn money to support his family lu....hahaha...n pls dun forget ur baby girl here a.....treat me eat n bring me go gai gai....wakakaka.....

Pre early happy fathers DAy to PAPA~

This year...many events can't be celebrate anymore without him...those special days like fathers day, father birthday, dumpling day, moon cake festival , and much more are not gonna be de same anymore....indeed...everyone in the family misses him very much....looking back at the photos...i really miss him alot...n how i wish he was still here...n i wish i could call him n talk to him...but it's was all never gonna happen again... the fact and truth is..he's is gone for good...he will not be longer appear in the life of the living ...but still we sometimes i never think that he's is gone...he is still right in the corner of my heart.....PAPA.. I Love You~!!!!!!

Although i can't celebrate it...but i still wanna wish him that ....Dad, happy fathers day o.....me n gor gor might not be able to celebrate with u this year and the following ....but we will still wish u de...just in our heart.......

What are your actions???

today i went to visit a friend of mine which have been suffering from cancer since the past 2 months...it's quite a while since i saw him....i still remember his cute chubby face...n always smile smile....n i even remember him walking like a boss in class... but...today was a shocking moment which i didn't expect...i never thought he would be in this kind of condition.although i have prepared mentally n physically...but still...it tear my heart apart when i saw my friend need to go thru this difficult moment in life...it's very upsetting to everyone who visit him....nothing much can be chatter about....all we do was stand there n look at him....feeling we are helpless at that point....

and when the parents let us know that this is just the 1st chemo that he had....he have even bcome more swollen n bloated than before...his eyes are closed...he can't open it to see it....he can only hear the voice of his surroundings. and still he have to go thru this chemo for another 5-6 sessions before he could be operated...and after the operation he still have to go thru for therapy..... how would u feel about it?? even at this point, he need to go thru so much for it...all those pain he have to take it...physically and mentally... i ask myself....can i even go thru it??? can i really be strong for it??? i doubt myself wht actions would be if i were in his shoes....

my dear friends who went......pls don't forget...everyone  need to go thru diff kinds of things in life....n life is definitely not easy to walk it....but remember.....when we still have our families...be grateful for it.....when u have friends...remember to appreciate them n always concern about them....it's not about the gap whether u know that person much anot...but it's about wht would u do for ppl's in this world...although there are many not worthy ppl that u wouldn't wanna help...but do bear in mind....dun put benefits in the 1st place.....but think it as as responsibility to take care of all human races....n dun forget....all human are the same level....dun compare status, color and attitude of each others...

to my friend which gonna fight for his destiny....continue for it...stay strong...stay tough... i can't do anything but to encourage you with words....i will pray for u hoping that u will have the strength to go thru all these....i know it's not easy for u n ur families....but don't give up~!!!

my confession

these few days....i really felt heartbroken over something which is not lasting n not meant to be...... i couldn't sleep well...my habit of looking at the phone during in the middle of the sleep are still like that....maybe i ald get used to it in this few months..... although tired as it seems...n nothing surprises that it will give...bt my hopes never stop me from waiting..... although the things i hate the most in life is waiting....but it never stops me from doing so.....

My love was pure n damn naive for someone who couldn't understand how i felt....i have been waiting all the time....n there's still nothing happen...well...are my hopes set to high???  i don't even know it anymore since that day.....everything have been crash just like that.... if were a computer.....i will just shutdown everything n never turn back on again....even when it's on ...it will be another version of OS..... 

somehow....i still misses the person i like the most...i miss him till i cry out to my bestie...i break down easily when i can't take it in my heart...it's not a gud feeling that i shud have...it's makes me emo n unhappy at all.....  actually there's nothing worth that shud be keep me waiting....maybe it's my hopes that have makes me wait for him.... but....this time i think i need to wake up le....i need to stop giving hopes in myself....maybe i shud run myself like OS.....give command n do it....n not auto set it n run...because when problem detected i can't fix it.....

i just wanna run away~

today being emo was not as gud as it felt....i felt terrible to others n to myself as well.... i can't even smile at the beginning when i saw them....we went out for dinner...n i don't even have the appetite to eat....maybe still haven't recover to the normal stage...but force my self to eat.....then i really canot tahan....i just wanna run away  from kampar n all the exam that gonna end soon...seems like...kampar is not a gud place anymore... hmm.... after that...reach home book our movie ticket..but just right when i step out of the car...a few steps away..i knock myself into the gate....ah....silly me....why was the gate was there??? how come i never notice it??? anyways...we watch the Avengers....quite an awesome movie... nice....highly recommendation for everyone....yeah....... hmm.... wht else....yeah.... to make myself feel better..... i spend a little money to make myself happy....can't totally say it makes me happy.....but felt relieve a little.... bought some mask, some make up applicator tat i'm gonna bring it to penang....... hehehe....

soon...exam will be finish by this friday..... finally my 1st sem in my 2nd year have ended...n it will be the 5month of dad leaving us.....argh....why isit that day....why isit always that day clashing something related....sigh....life seems not pretty gud lately.... but apparently....no one cares n matter about it.... n to motivate myself a little....i plan a Penang trip with my friends..... i really need a run away trip from the places i have been strangling with.... i wanna see new wonders....i wanna try diff view in diff places..... i just need some fresh air.....but there's still a few some days left before i can enjoy it....

n i feel like slapping myself....my souls is like lost...wondering out there....i feel like wanna drag it back...n say...." hey...u r not done yet.....get back in ur body missy" sad at it seems.... my heart is like not operating....i feel like i have been stop at there.....i hear the clock ticks....but not my heart...... so...wht would i be without a heart??? LOL..... IRONMAN......

wht it takes for me to go in this journey...

i have a rough nite lately...nothings seems to be going smooth...all i can do was cry....n i can't tell ppl how i feel....i feel very depressed....n at this point..i wish i could call my dad again n again to chat about how gud things were...how my father would comfort his lil girl.... it's not about the advise or anything but is his voice that makes me feel relieve that.... he's still there for me.... but wht's the point when u can't even hear it anymore??? sometimes when i'm back hometown during sembreak...it's just remind me even more.... infact...he's not there playing n talking lame jokes with me....

that nite...when i was food poisoning....being admitted in the hospital in few hours...makes me think that...in this situation he will be with me...no with some un-close stranger.... i really felt scared when the needles poke in....n that stupid doctor can't find the veins...he would be making me laugh n comfort me.... but a fact is a fact....dad is gone...he's not there anymore.....n it just makes me feel sad....there are still many things he haven't teach me do n done it yet.... it's just not fair... the promises he make will not able done in this lifetime.... ppl keep tell me be strong...n let it go... but it's just less than 5 months....how could u possibly forget the one u love the most....that will not be coming back again....??? it takes time for me to learn to do things without him.... i'm scared to do it...but i push my self to the limit just to do things i don't want to do.... i just wanna rely on ppl sometimes...but no one wanna let me do it....

my 1st drip in the hospital...

i know he will always be in my heart.....n i have to go through this journey without him...taking care of things that i never did....doing things that i don't even want too.... i promise him that i will make him  proud...the 1st graduate in the house....take gud care of mum.....

how you think will reflect on how you do it~

 if this was the reflection of  your life...how would u think??

at this hour of time....hmm...5.10 am in the morning to blog it out.....means i have something in my mind...something that bothers me that, i can't even make a correct judgement anymore.... i admit, i'm not happy and can be emotional sometimes...but i'm trying my best to overcomes those mistakes..... life is fragile....wht is life about?? food, shelter and protection and also affection as well...

n well i'm not good in dealing with my emotions when it comes to affection. would u even think that you are stupid enough to be fool ....it's really up to you actually...quotes such as "to be or not to be"....... u can be the one fooling or get fool about it...but, why do u wanna get involve in fooling one another...it's a funny thing happen in a human...when u know someone makes mistakes....can u actually really forgive them?? the ans would be YES....Y? cause our heart are fragile enough.... i bet everyone makes mistakes....i remember one of my lecturer says... mistakes are part of being human... u can choose to forgive...u can choose to forget...but .....  human will still make the same mistakes over and over again unconsciously.... i dare not to say myself to be perfect and do no mistakes....instead i think my mistakes was being naive to believe something that would change....i'm willing to put in all the time....to wait for the miracle to happen....put high hopes in it... but it would always not up to my expectations... OR i could say.... NOT EVEN CLOSE..... to believe is a gud thing....but when reality hits u up.... things that you believe will gone disappear.... because u can't control ppl actions and behavior, therefore we only will be ended with break downs.... phew....wht a miserable life you can say..... another quotes here... " fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me" ....

Now  think again...when a person did a mistakes...it's really worth giving them a chance to prove they could rebound  it??? Chances are , why not give it a try...... hmmm...sounds like a gud idea..... then problem is....
A wound would still be a wound...no matter how hard u try to forget the past...it still happen before....n wound could be heal with those positive thinking n time of course...if the one who make mistakes really try hard to fix it, the wound would heal ....... but wht if they don't??? ans would be....OUCH~!!! You hurt me again~!!!.....u open up the wound n put more pain on it.... i know it felt bad when shits happen~.... and by this point, your trust towards that person will be re- evaluate again.... maybe it was a mistakes of your own to give this person a chance....but at the same time it could also deepen the pain.....

BUT think again ..... these thing u having are just part of being human.....chinese proverbs always say... life is about sweetness~, sourness~ bitterness~ , and also spiciness ~ being human is not easy sometimes.... therefore we need to go through 3 elements that we don't like .... because it's just part of life.... n thru this... some might have grown up... but some are heading to the wrong direction...making it worst when they don't realize it.....n so...my conclusion is.... don't overtake it....just loosen it up...life are NOT meant to be living in this way.... so wht if u really get hurt....??? when you think back again....you might thank them up for giving an experience in life....to make you stronger n tougher when facing these situations... i'm not an expert either...but at least i get the point n try to make a better thought of it.... positive thinking will of course lead to a positive outcome....although it might not be up to our expectations, but it will still be good enough... my last quotes here...: HOW you Think will Reflect on How YOU would do it~!!!!....

nite ppl....XOXO~

my different night mares~!!!

last time when i was small till i was in secondary high school...i used to have this night mares that comes to me ...the same old night mares that make me crying waking up...i used to hate this person in the past...but when he'gone...it doesn't matter anymore.....cause i Love him deeply...n nothing is more matter for this loss...

this times....another night mares strikes me....i don't feel that good at all.....it's was indeed more depress facing this kind of dreams....it keep repeating that....i remember every single details....it just makes me even more worried when i sleep...it was about going back my home....n saw it was dark at the time...n my mum keep going out although the surrounding was dark....it's was creepy....n i all know was...i need to take gud care of her...i need to protect her from danger....protect my mum from those bad guys.....i feel scared when my brother was not there to help....it was only me n mum....my responsible have been added... phew.....it was indeed tougher than i thought it would be....looking back at the life tht i'm having now.....i'm still in university...n it become more pressure when i'm haven't completing my study yet......it's still a long way to go before i start earning money......haihz.....was it a burden to my brother ??? i hope not so.....since papa gone...he's be the main contributor in this family...i hope to help him instead of giving him burden.....but...thinking positively...my mum always wanted her children to be a graduate from the uni...n i'm just living with it..n try to realizing her dreams......

wht i learn in Buddhism today..

it's was indeed a great lessons today....i learn something else...n also get to charge electric too by going for chanting meeting...it's been a long time since i absent....most of the time due to my busy schedule for doing assignment...worrying my mum and also waiting for someone to always shows up which he didn't any way....

wht i learn in Buddhism today was that....everyone have 10 values in them....n the last value is to become the Buddha...now...don't get me wrong...Buddha do appear in everyone...Buddha is not some god that have seen most of the times in the temple....according to the old story that i have read....Buddha was formerly a human too...just like anyone of us...his story was much more interesting than anyone could face....facing those toughest challenges was indeed hard....even me...might have the courage and wits to face it...i admit...that i have my own weakness too....well...soft heart was one of my characteristic...but some ppl just like to misuse it...hmm...well...ppl like these...we shud really forgive them....they are just one of the obstacle that appear in our life...why would wanna stay unhappy n nag about it..why not forget about it...

Buddha can do it...why can't we??? it's hard to follow all the 10 values n principles in life...but...we still can be Buddha...just don't forget wht they thought us...n apply it to the ppl who need more guidance...no matter how hard our life get....we still can go through it with our sense of rationality...dun let the subconscious to control our mind to did wht is wrong but instead doing the right thing..... everyone makes mistake....so...just forgive them...even our self did one too...just admit it....everyone does....Buddha was no exception...he's no perfect too...but through his guidance and experience...he realize it n enhance this to be better....open up their mind....move to the different level of thinking....the thinking of conscious...rationality....the other point of view....nothing can be as negative as we thought...when times pass by...we will just realize that...the past are nothing but an experience to makes us grew stronger and tougher ...n of course with more rationality...

solving MTP USB device for samsung galaxy W~!

ok....i got a new phone....about less than a month ago......it's my 1st smartphone that my bro have bought for me....samsung Galaxy W....yay.....same functions as S2 but smaller n not Amoled screen....still ok for me.....at 1st dl apps n using them will make ur phone a little big lag due to some apps that will not close properly...sigh.....hey...but then my friend fix it by installing that advance task killer apps.....since then....my phone works kinda smooth...not lag ald....

then i still lookin a way to fix that USB problem that seems to be fail connecting to my window 7 pc....sigh.....searching through those internet n advise about fixing it.....but none seems good enough...i tought of giving myself a try to fix it myself n hey...i did it...yay.....

ok...1st time...when u plug in...usually will run itself rite??? but most will encounter saying that fail to install......

my solution...

1.open ur phone setting then chooses wireless and network ...

2.then click USB mass storage device.....(okay by this time...ur phone cable will not be connecting to the PC yet....i repeat......DO NOT connect that USB port to ur PC yet)

3.then continue in that USB mass storage... click Connect storage to PC.....(ok...by this time...it will appear a box stating that connect USB cable to use mass storage....then only connect by this time)

4. after plug in tht USB....ur PC will auto fix that prob that u have n now press

5.Connect USB storage from ur phone.....
6.then....tada...... u r connected....now u can view files ald.......settle...that's just it....don't have to install those software....

check out the short video for better understanding...^^

lastest birthday wish list~~!!!

due to request of ms.celine... i just need to make one...hahaha....well.....actually i dun feel like getting anything....i'm kinda blank in my mind....

so....here it goes....

1. i wanna hug something furry n cute...

2. Samsung W

3. new cardigan n that vincci flats....

4. that induction cooker....

5. a very very big space pendrive....

6. t-shirts...

7. make up set/ brushes

8. dream more perfume....

9. a vacation to be stress free...

10. a new bag for my campus/ purse.....

11. things that i can use....something i need....but i still haven't get it....

12. some accessories....necklace or earing...

13.i dun mind if u give me something else other than these.....

14. ppl that love me as i am???hahaha

alll by myselft~!!!

since dad is not here anymore.....is now up to the children to settle the things....it's been kinda stress for me.....painting gates......trying to make everyone happy and content in their mind...n sometimes i need to suffer listening to my neighbor nagging about the past...it's upsetting when the living is gone....n try not to think of him is definitely hard....

n things need to take charge....cleaning the house was hard.....a thick layer of dust was in some areas..especially..my dad room......got lots of unwanted things.....it's time to pack away all his clothes n those others things....

then need to settle up the dressing room.....too much clothes....most are from vincent.. my only big bro...sometimes i wonder....why i don't have that much clothes???....arh.....dusty also.....throwing away those can't be used...n those which still looks good gonna go to the charity house......

then.....wht else???hmm......oh yea...the car porch.....need to do some washing n cleaning as well....

lastly is the whole are of the kitchen and dining room........arh.....mostly the whole house need to be settle by own.....=.=''llllllllll

haihz........i wonder if i could hire a maid n do stuff for me........hahaha

here comes 2012~~!!!!

spend my 1st day my 2012 by going kaikan...then fall asleep during whole day....n go out yamcha with teng.....
another year have come....n in about 22 days ...i will be celebrating my 22nd birthday n also CNY...it's kinda sad when u think of the things that have happen in more than 3 weeks ago...my dad pass away...n celebration is not the same without him ald....things now have change....i can depend on him anymore....we have to do things ourself.....my tears drop when i think of him...it's still kinda hard for me to let go of him...i still need time to recover...i'm not ready for this...acting tough all the ain't easy...i just hide it..n normally will cry when i'm alone.......TT.TT.....
anyways i was hoping this year would be different...hoping it's a new year...a new start ....a new beginning...a new journey...a new hope n new vision.....n also leave all those bad habit behind.......
n wht's my new year resolutions....??? be happy n let got of the bad things that have happen in the past n restart my life.....i will do my best for move on.....n achieve well in my academic...try not to disappointing my family....n lastly ....found someone that truly hearts me.......