today ...it's the 8th month since my dad past away....i miss him deeply...my tears automatically fall down when i think of him.....i just can't control it...i know u guys keep tell me....be strong n so on...but....i just hate the feeling...it's hard to control n hard to accept tht the loss in my life is hard to cure at the moment....
but remembering someone u love n respect is a gud thing rite??? should i choose to forget??? my ans would be... i dun want too.....
then come to think about it...argh...why 11th always fall on saturday most of the time for this year??? i feel suffocated dealing this day every month.....the day he left was 11th....but the time i always contact with him was on every saturday....at this point...i really miss his voice ...telling me to study hard....dun over stress... n also all those lame jokes that we used to talk about.... haihz..... i know...i can't do it with him anymore...
some say...when times pass it will get better n better....for me....it's still kinda ok....things do get better....but it doesn't mean i don't miss my dad..... i dun dare to mention much in front of my family cause i scared it will make them feel sad about it...i scared they will break down when they remember it....
mum always tell me....when things left in the past...just let it go that way....dun always think about it....but....for me...it was a great memory....even if i cry....i don't think it's wrong.....it's just a emotion of missing him badly....after a gud cry....i still live my life in a gud way...
anyways...felt better after crying and blogging about this.... don't worry guys...i'm ok....i just miss him~...
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