hard to be myself~

feeling unhappy at this moment, i keep thinking...who have really change?? between me and the person i always share my problem with....

i dunno wht i have did wrong, but being treated as an invisible person doesn't make me feel good at all.... it's really sad.... when u trying to care...but being ignore.....i feel i'm nobody in this world... i dunno who i shud be... shud i be myself or someone else?? i feel hard to be myself, when everyone wanted me to become someone else to satisfy their expectations???

i need more laugh~

haihz...since all my friends are like leaving me one by one....i laugh lesser n lesser....it used to be so fun with those gurl, but nw they are either working or stop studying, n some are just busy falling in love~....

it's easy to detect when i'm stress last time....friends can see it easily when the moments i laugh so hard, talking all those funny things even though the joke is not really funny, but guess wht ...it make others happy n i make me happy too...i feel great every time i have tht extreme laugh....it makes me relieve n in a better mood to study...but still i force myself to study even i don't really want to.... n since the laughing have reduce...i really just wan someone to talk too when i'm even the bad mood or happy....i just wanna share n nag all the things.....don't really have to give a feedback thou..haha...i guess this is wht every gurls wants....let them speak all they wan...

anyways...my hair have been falling down like crazy too....maybe it's the stress for the pre-finals...which is as usual...but is like...gosh...every sem?? u must be kidding rite...then notice that when i took photo...it doesn't look so nice too...it just makes my face to be wider or chubbier...not sure wht happen....or maybe water retention actually.....haha...

at this point...i just really wanna be happy or just go for a short trip to release all those toxin in my mind....