It's still hard to let go~

today ...it's the 8th month since my dad past away....i miss him deeply...my tears automatically fall down when i think of him.....i just can't control it...i know u guys keep tell me....be strong n so on...but....i just hate the feeling...it's hard to control n hard to accept tht the loss in my life is hard to cure at the moment....
but remembering someone u love n respect is a gud thing rite??? should i choose to forget??? my ans would be... i dun want too.....

then come to think about it...argh...why 11th always fall on saturday most of the time for this year??? i feel suffocated dealing this day every month.....the day he left was 11th....but the time i always contact with him was on every saturday....at this point...i really miss his voice ...telling me to study hard....dun over stress... n also all those lame jokes that we used to talk about.... haihz..... i know...i can't do it with him anymore...

some say...when times pass it will get better n better....for me....it's still kinda ok....things do get better....but it doesn't mean i don't miss my dad..... i dun dare to mention much in front of my family cause i scared it will make them feel sad about it...i scared they will break down when they remember it....

mum always tell me....when things left in the past...just let it go that way....dun always think about it....but....for me...it was a great memory....even if i cry....i don't think it's wrong.....it's just a emotion of missing him badly....after a gud cry....i still live my life in a gud way...

anyways...felt better after crying and blogging about this.... don't worry guys...i'm ok....i just miss him~...

When boys meet girls~

When talking about this topic....pls do not feel offended with the content ....it's just my personal view point....things that i have observed....

when a boy meet a girl...the girl that he likes....he will really put much effort in it....but how bout things after he succeed??? most of the times...guys will not be as caring as the last time he would(when he was chasing you)...u gotta admit that...it was the most enjoyed...n the sessions love by girls....but...when times pass by in this relationship....things could change and the commitment in the relationship can be getting lesser and lesser.... n my the questions that play in my mind is...wht is LOVE??? any definition for it?? any rules that need to be follow??? how long can it last????

in my opinion...loving a person can last for a lifetime.....but why could ppl stop loving each others???
the answer would be....when they can't understand each other....n misunderstood keep appearing in the scene of life...

a boy will always says.....why are girls so complicated.....but,

a girl will always think....why doesn't my guy care anymore?? why he is totally diff from the person i 1st meet??

as true it is...guys doesn't realize that....they did care...n put much effort in it for the beginning.....but they stop doing it....or lazy to continue such affection for the long term...
but girls in the other way....love to be loved n pay attention all the times...they just wan their lover give them....all their time.....haha...but too bad....u can have it all~!!!

when boys n girls can't meet up to the standard procedures....things started to change a little worst....

girls intend to cry every month just for him...

but guys never give a shit~... still continue wht he was doing all the time...

dear guys....do u know that....that girl u chase...that girl holding ur hand...is the girl waiting for u most of the time.....that girl is the girl which is willing to sacrifice even more than she ever did for her family....she do it just for u.....

why girls do that???  they just hope that ....u will treat her better....treat her like the way u used to treat her in the beginning....n be better than that.....

eventually girls wishes are just simple...they just hope...u care every details she give.....give her respond n reaction about it....

n to dear girls.....do you know that....guys do love you...but they are just busy...n.....they like to give excuses....or maybe u think he was lying about things...or hiding some secret...n for sure...u can't have him for 24/7 everyday....duh....therefore....dun spend so much times focusing on him...have your own personal life....dun let ur guy take over ur life...waiting for someone to respond is just gonna be heartache in the end...
n pls pls pls pls.....do know that...guys have lower EQ than girls...most of the hints u give him...he can't get it...so...just tell him directly lar....haha.....that way....things wouldn't be complex rite....hahaha

every couple....sure have arguments on something...so...dun worry....as long as u love each other...things will work out no matter how hard the situation will be.... just give some times out... lots of patience...and understanding about each other.... 

P.s: girls...u might cry n sobbing about how ur guys mistreated you...but....seriously...he never think he mistreated you..... it's just the high hopes that u put on them are still doesn't know by them yet....most of the boys doesn't get wht girls wants~!!!!!

it's august~

scary and worry when time flies this quick this time.....it's august 2012....it's been the 2nd sem of my 2nd year.....OMG...damn fast...n soon it's gonna be my exam....haihz.......worry for this sem subj as it's quite tough.....n hardly to bear with it...anways...life still goes on n the level of maturity have increase more since he left.....

my dad....have left me for almost 9 months....those funny and precious will still be in my mind.....although miss him sometimes...i just intend to cry it out to feel better....nothing's feel better than a good cry for it.....i miss him much.....

back to reality nw...i wonder why the university student are getting worst in behavior......some of them are pissing me off for incomplete assignment...argue n tell them also no use.....still will be acting the same way......i swear will not use them for any work again....really feel angry when there's is due date...n everyone is waiting for their work....haihz......why uni students are getting so lazy??? really fed up with this kind of attitude...... 

other than that....hehehe...happy for my beloved baby boy who's  going to finish study soon....dun have to suffer study like me d....need to go to work n earn money to support his family lu....hahaha...n pls dun forget ur baby girl here a.....treat me eat n bring me go gai gai....wakakaka.....