today being emo was not as gud as it felt....i felt terrible to others n to myself as well.... i can't even smile at the beginning when i saw them....we went out for dinner...n i don't even have the appetite to eat....maybe still haven't recover to the normal stage...but force my self to eat.....then i really canot tahan....i just wanna run away from kampar n all the exam that gonna end soon...seems like...kampar is not a gud place anymore... hmm.... after that...reach home book our movie ticket..but just right when i step out of the car...a few steps away..i knock myself into the gate....ah....silly me....why was the gate was there??? how come i never notice it??? anyways...we watch the Avengers....quite an awesome movie... nice....highly recommendation for everyone....yeah....... hmm.... wht else....yeah.... to make myself feel better..... i spend a little money to make myself happy....can't totally say it makes me happy.....but felt relieve a little.... bought some mask, some make up applicator tat i'm gonna bring it to penang....... hehehe....
soon...exam will be finish by this friday..... finally my 1st sem in my 2nd year have ended...n it will be the 5month of dad leaving us.....argh....why isit that day....why isit always that day clashing something related....sigh....life seems not pretty gud lately.... but apparently....no one cares n matter about it.... n to motivate myself a little....i plan a Penang trip with my friends..... i really need a run away trip from the places i have been strangling with.... i wanna see new wonders....i wanna try diff view in diff places..... i just need some fresh air.....but there's still a few some days left before i can enjoy it....
n i feel like slapping myself....my souls is like lost...wondering out there....i feel like wanna drag it back...n say...." hey...u r not done yet.....get back in ur body missy" sad at it seems.... my heart is like not operating....i feel like i have been stop at there.....i hear the clock ticks....but not my heart...... so...wht would i be without a heart??? LOL..... IRONMAN......
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