my different night mares~!!!

last time when i was small till i was in secondary high school...i used to have this night mares that comes to me ...the same old night mares that make me crying waking up...i used to hate this person in the past...but when he'gone...it doesn't matter anymore.....cause i Love him deeply...n nothing is more matter for this loss...

this times....another night mares strikes me....i don't feel that good at all.....it's was indeed more depress facing this kind of dreams....it keep repeating that....i remember every single details....it just makes me even more worried when i sleep...it was about going back my home....n saw it was dark at the time...n my mum keep going out although the surrounding was dark....it's was creepy....n i all know was...i need to take gud care of her...i need to protect her from danger....protect my mum from those bad guys.....i feel scared when my brother was not there to help....it was only me n mum....my responsible have been added... phew.....it was indeed tougher than i thought it would be....looking back at the life tht i'm having now.....i'm still in university...n it become more pressure when i'm haven't completing my study yet......it's still a long way to go before i start earning money......haihz.....was it a burden to my brother ??? i hope not so.....since papa gone...he's be the main contributor in this family...i hope to help him instead of giving him burden.....but...thinking positively...my mum always wanted her children to be a graduate from the uni...n i'm just living with it..n try to realizing her dreams......