R.I.P Daddy~~!!!!

it's ald 5.30 in the morning of 12/12/2011......still i'm awake...n can't sleep....because deep inside my heart i have lost some valuable in life....a person that i love ....my dad....

i really couldn't believe that he has gone....gone forever in my life.....but right in my heart i still can remember his smile....although many things happens....mostly that are bad n kinda influence me....but i still love him...no matter wht ...i'm still his little girl~!!!...

the day of 11/12/2011 10:45pm.... the day he gone....the time he pass away......
i'm really heartbroken n sad....i actually couldn't accept the fact that he is really not there....i really miss him...but it's very hard for me now...i wish i was back lately....saw him...but i have no longer have the chance to do it...... but i still get to hear his voice few days ago....

i CAN'T Sleep~!!!!!! many flash back appear in my mind....all those gud childhood memory.....those time that we play....funny things that happen n many things....n i even can't accept that he broke his promise once again.....the promise of staying healthy n watch me graduate from university.....it kinda broke my heart when he can't do it.....right in my mind i was hoping that when i finish uni...we would take a family pictures again...but he can't do it anymore..........plus he actually could have celebrated his birthday on this month on 30/12...but he couldn't make it.....my brother and i was thinking to have a reunion dinner or something like that ...but he's not there ald.....

mostly sad.....next year chinese new year suppose to be happy....it suppose to be a wonderful start......n of course it was my birthday too.....he was suppose to celebrate for me also.....but....but.....

right now.....i'm scared to face ppl i'm about to meet this tuesday......they will give their condolences....but i really hard to accept the fact of his death....n with the aunts all coming to his funeral....would i be able to hold my tears???? i really can't ......in fact.... have been crying from since i heard when he was having difficulty in breathing.......n it's hard for me to sleep n not to think wht have happen ......i really can't think of anything but cry n think of my dearest dad........

I LOVE YOU DAD~~!!! R.I.P.......u will be born in a better family....

苦口良药。。

lol....i was getting sick symptom starting on sunday nite...n didn't expect i was not getting better....gosh.....but oh well...look at the bright side....once or twice a year not bad wht....at least can help improve n the body immune system....anways...i was start getting sore throat a little...then i went for salt gargling....but then i end up getting fever n flu......HAcHO... was the term i using these few days....plus...i start eat medicine kinda late....on wednesday only start to consume my hurix 600....dang....i shud start earlier.....but after that....flu was kind ok...no more sneezing most of the time....but body temperate was kinda abnormal....kinda heaty...like feverish...but i feel nothing...but headache....even wakes me up from sleep....aiks...n today ...realize that...exam coming ald...i think it's better for me to get cure before it's too late to prepare for it....end up...calling my dear shuk huey to fetch me out to get some med.....went to this chinese herbs shop....ask for some med to cure.....erm....for the price of rm 10 i get 9 brown pills...n 6 yellow ones....hmm....wondering how it taste??? OMG...eyes roll..@.@...it was so damn bitter.....in chinese really can say...苦口良药。。 bitter medicine works best...but the taste was killing me...oh.......hahaha.... does it really work??? guess wht??? really cool down my body temperature....nw...i'm feeling normal again...no more feeling too hot or just burst sweat suddenly....thanks to that man......苦口良药....真的苦。。才有效。。。

my last batch before going to sleep....hopefully can fight more than 10 tigers..ahahaha

my wishing well~~!!!!

so....here it goes....next month 23 january 2011 it's a special happy day....duh.....hahaha......1st...not only my birthday but also CNY~~!! yay??? hmm.....i was thinking wht special could it be huh??? i dunno yet....cause no plan was reveal as need to pay all sort of study fees in uni...hmmm....but anways....some would be asking...wht i want for my birthday~!!!...simple....can check out the list below....hiak hiak hiak....maybe it's too over for you guys.....but it's just a wish lar...n not necessarily wan...it's just for fun...hahaha...so here goes:

MY 22nd bufdae wishing well
1.get loved by friends n family
2.world harmony
3.everyone live well, eat well
4.get a new phone
5.vacation
6.more new clothes, shoes, accessories
7.unlimited credits
8.a hug-gable toy
9.unlimited cash flow
10. a great hot body-haha..this one have to work on my own
11.flowers
12. surprises
13. celebrating an event in other state
14.a new basic brush set from Bubbi
15. cosmetics
16. a car wif unlimited petrol

that's all...nah....some are not really wanted....spot urself weyh...wahahaha

my 1st year of uni life gonna ends~!!!

time flies so fast.....n sometimes i couldn't believe wht actually i have been gone through all these 21 years....phew~.......nothing was smooth in life...but challenges are faced as to make as wiser and stronger.......i miss everything being a kid....but life goes on...till now.... i'm in university life~!! some ppl say it would be the greatest thing...but it could be an opposite point for you too....everything depends on how u think on it~....i have learn quite alot in this last sem of my 1st year.....i meet a gud person, a friend which i have been waiting all these while, a person that really meet my criteria for whom i will respect n like this kind of behavior....well...i can't say not everyone is perfect...not even me....i have bad traits too....i have communicate wif diff kind of ppl, diff levels.....n i can just switch to diff character just like that with those ppl...n sometimes i'm kinda lost n i need someone pull me back down the earth...n say...hey....don't be other ppl.....hahaha...but that never happen....
anyways...my friend.....i truly appreciate you...n i even felt very happy to meet someone that actually cared for others.....as the wise one say..."treat other the way you want to be treated"... it's true.....i have been putting much effort to treat ppl gud but i never get ways i wanted to be treated...n finally i really met someone which kinda impressive ...... plus....isit too much to be true when u found out such person still care for the community??? well he really did volunteer in education those kids....realy big claps for you..... at this point i realize that, in my Buddhism teaching...besides than being yourself, it's very important for you to contribute as well.....some ppl can contribute after they earn wht they want...but why not do wht you can to change the world perception....i really self reflect about myself.....wht have i really did all this while??? some say...i'm doing great... making donation for the poor wants, caring n lending the ears to the sad ones, helping others who need help...n hey...think of it....when u ask me help u guys out.... do i really reject much??? some ppl never expect that ppl can help u much...but i will always do my best....n not forgetting that actually i need to start take care of SOKA members.....laziness fill in everyone heart....sometimes u need to take a break...but too much break will just delay ur things.....

soon.....my 1st year of uni life gonna end...n of course anticipating for another year....n wondering wht i will be going thru next...n kinda sad for saying gudbye for some ppl u meet....i can't imagine without u by myside....u don't motivate me...but looking at you...just makes me self motivated ...try not to give up...n even i felt tired n complain ...u haven't say nag to me how's ur things going...n u stay so strong.... which i think u really one of the kind or shud i say ' you're the apple of my eyes'...thanks for bringing me back down to earth n realize things.....although u don't know or felt that u actually have such great powers...but deeply in my heart...U R~~!!!!!

and also not forgetting ppl who have been myside too....they have contribute too......thanks everyone .....thanks for being my friend n have the opportunity to meet you...it's great.....n stay positive, n dun worry too much.... everything can be settle...it can be a matter of time...n if u guys think ....my life SUCks....can't tahan......just come n tell me....i'm more than willing to help.....let me be a part of your life...n together we conquer it.....n pls don't forget....contribute back in life~~!!! i'm not saying karma...i'm saying the responsible of being a human being which is beside living in your own life....care about the natures n also diff community.....no discrimination of anything~~!!!!!...... all are just equal......we are just diff color, culture, n places....but somehow...we are still living in this planet, this galaxy.....

pls don't lie n break the promise u make...

to all the guys out there......i mean alll.......no exception whether u r straight or not.........i damn hate u guys......u have give me happiness yet u make me suffer most of the time.....i hate u guys.........why u all wan to treat me like this....?? i'm kinda fed up ald....

n before that....dun ever lie to ur kid...he/she will remember it..n hate u for the rest of their lives........this is a true story based which have happen on me.....

i still remember that day...i was only a kid...still in primary i think...around 7-8 years old......my father promise me to bring me go out with him.....but he lied.......he lied....he lied.........he broke his promise....it was the day i know mens will always lie.......n never kept their promise.....my beloved father who say he love me......but he lied...... i remember this incident till today.....all those blurred out memories have now come back and haunt me.....that day he lied...it was the day i cry n angry with a man with such promises.....i'm angry..piss......n of course....it canot be acceptable at all....i wondering myselft at that age.....why he did that??? does he have a reason for doing that??? the ans would be NO......mens are at its nature...they will simply say things to make u happy but actually it will hurts u the most if u really believe it....pls lar....i'm damn tired hearing promises from ppl.....

at the age of 21 now......i'm still single......some say just wait for the right one.....but will i really ever met one in life...hmmm..........i don't think so....99.9% of mens in this world do lied....or broke their promises....some promises can be broken but not all....something meant to be done...n must be done now.....not some small issue but a big matter.......a matter that involve the development of life.....how could i survive in university if u keep breaking promises to me...i'm 21...not 3 ...u can't just say something that u think u could do...but u didn't do it...it's so not fair....
i hate how u would actually give some lame excuses...n u still keep lying to me till ur the age of 53 now......how could u really??? u r the one who suppose to protect me ...n teach me how things really work..but u show me the cruelty in this world......n as the result of these lies n broken promises...i have grew a stronger n stronger defense in myself......never trust ppl actually they can kept their promise.....n of course losing faith n hope in others ald.......

as now....promises are jokes...they can't be rely on ald....not practical at all......n same goes to the principal in life.....as times goes...i find myself are bcoming reliable to others.....i will only make promises that can be done....if i can't, i will really apologize n inform earlier.....but would never break it......wht is the meaning behind promises????

n who could really kept their promises to me???? who can i really trust n rely???? who can really understand this feelings that have been burried deep inside my heart????? i'm kinda destroy because of you dad....thanks alot.....thanks for showing me the real world in my young age.....

pilates challenge workout.....

hmm...i always been dreaming the ideal body that i want...n i think it's time for me to try hard to get it...n yes.....work out.....some how i really not motivated much by the excercise till recently whic i have been watching youtube....a fitness pilates trainer cassey ho....she's really great...n hoping i can get a body like her too...<3.....so...therefore...today i will start my pilates challenge...n if the result are major...i'm likely gonna thanks her alot...for uploading diff kind of pilates work out....n as i been listening to my aunt says that...pilates are great work out especially u r trying to lose weight...so ...dear friends n family...try pilates now..n feel the diff...hehehe...hopefully i can wear pretty clothes by next year...n so...i give 2 months more myself to change to a nicer body....hopefully everything turn out gud....

home sweet home~~.????

erhm......sem 2 over got this year....n it's time for my break again.....but somehow....i dun feel happy at all....cause i'm still healing from a wound......argh...i just hope everything can be gone thru quickly.....it's horrible feeling...it's a nightmare.....since i'm back home...i have nothing to do much...i just hope i got some part time job that.... can earn money n also stop making myself to think of something nonsense.....arh.....really felt tired at this moment.....i just wish i when rest...i will have nice dreams...n stay there forever.....reality is too harsh for me......T.T.....
life still move on....but somehow unexpected things happen......n when it happens.....u just feels like wanna run from it....like going some trip.....explore places...cultures....meet ppl.....going places tht no one know......n telling story that u have kept in the heart.......

想太多 Xiang Tai Duo [KTV] - 李玖哲 Li Jiu Zhe

yEar 1 Sem 2 Over~~!!!

whee.....1st wanna congratulate myself for pulling up over on sem2.....but not happy at all...cause i feel stress everytime exam.....i'm glad it's over now...n gonna have my one month break....but because i have money problem...therefore...hope to get some high pay jobs......sigh....life is hard when u dun have money.....T.T
but anyways....get to enjoy also.....get wasted yesterday nite.....but....my was doesn't show much.....i have take shots.....hahaha.....whisky....beer...all come....hahaha....but yesterday really crazy till....speechless lah.......
my hope for this sem is just pass all subject......i really try my best memorizing...but it really drive me crazy.....cause i have a bad memory....sigh.....
heard news that the nasi lemak 2.0 gonna be taken down by the gov.....WTF??? it's the best movie of the year.......they approve the movie before the making of the production...n now they wan to stop in cinemas???? oh...come on malaysia....u can do better than this......

Nasi lemak 2.0 directed by Namewee

this is my 1st movie review....a movie which truly orignated making in Malaysia.....yeah ppl...u hear me.....it's a Malaysian production....for me.... i think it's quite impressive....from the filming to the editing n graphics in the movie...all have been well done....one word....excellent...

as for myself...i'm a Namewee fans...so...i'm quite excited when he produce this movie...we even heard that...he have been rejected at the beginning....but still he accomplish to film this movie low budget but high quality....really amaze ppl that....he really have a heart to bring out the msg in this movie....although some ppl says...it's might too hilarious....but in the end...we realize that wht he's filming out in the film are the fact n reality.....if u really think about it...u will understand.....wht happen in the movie really exist....n i'm so happy n satisfied after watching this movie....i think i would watch it over n over again....n even ask my parents to join me to watch...i think they will enjoy it as well...
as wht the story line is about......??? i wun tell....u need to see it by urself.....if u r a true malaysian which know many languages...i think u might end up laughing in the cinema real good....cause it really worth watching....never in myself in think malaysian movie is good enough compare to other country.....but after watching this...i really felt that....we made it.....i think Namewee production can fight with those h.k or singapore movie director......oh yeah...Malaysia boleh~~!!!!
final thought....it's a movie worth watching.....quality good.....good laughter...n most important....the msg he trying told in the movie are true enough...n also daring enough...(but wht's the point if u dun dare to do it right???dun so sensitive then can d loh...)

thanks to Namewee n crew for all the hard effort that u have put in.....ur effort have pay off d....i even heard they fall sick leh during producing movie time...due to a very limit of time n low budget...n still they produce this great movie.....if got dvd out...i think i will buy...hahaha....
n also thanks to all the actor n actress in the movie which really come out n film this movie...big applause for them.....this is wht the malaysian spirit mah......this is really the 1 Malaysia concept trying to be shown.....

p.s: right now...i'm so wanted to watch it again....haha...although i watch it yesterday nite...

http://youtu.be/3QyRzSKuwkY

方大同 x 徐佳瑩 - ''自以為'' MV

Bad Meets Evil - Lighters ft. Bruno Mars

Selena Gomez & The Scene - Love You Like A Love Song

好的事情 KTV - 嚴爵 Yen-j [醉後決定愛上你] (HQ 寬螢幕)

little bad girl....

lol....listening to this song....thinking back wht have happen recently.....it's time my blog on wht is happening d....keke....
1.a few numbers of ppl add....which i dun kinda know...never met.....hmmm.....isit fun or not?? the ans would be 70% not fun.....
2. exams is coming soon d...must start study hard...
3.i wanna dance again...i wanna throw away all my problems that been on my mind now....
4. today is the day someone really piss me off till i gastric....TQ....

since no.1 n no 4. is kinda related....i think i will wanna spill it all out...cause till now ...i have some gas in my tummy that makes me kinda sick...feeling gastric pain...argh....all is because...i'm giving a chance for someone get to know me...but that person is just too afraid...i really dun understand why.....all are friends only a....ask u out for dinner also got that scary meh??? wht is mean by not confidence??? see 1st??? all these are just bullshit.... this is just not fair...u saw me ...bt i really dunno who the hell are u??? u think i'm god ar??? keep asking things i dun even know wht u trying to know....wht so curios about girls....come out n ask lar....there's really nothing to be afraid u know.....it's just come out have a meet....get to know more friends...but y ppl must think so complicated n dun even appreciate the chances given??? i really dun understand......i'm NOT trying to Be Mean......I offer....but u dunwan accept.....since then...i'm blocking u off my FB chat.....dun blame me....dun angry wif me.....but i really dulan with this kind of ppl....really geram n pik chik lar.....make me have gastric for such nonsense thingy...luckily....my friends all accompany me tonite to release stress......ah....finally relieve from wht i have done.....only one thing need to focus in my mind now ...that's study....study n study.......

P.s: if u ever read this....dun blame me for being lame ....writting all these thing out...most of my friends ask me give u chance to meet up...but u nver accept...so...that's how things go....i shud really listen to my friends advice.....block/ delete him off ur fb......u know...my friends are kinda rite....cause if u r sincere to be friends...u shouldn't be afraid to come out n meet me....but instead...u have just reject the offer....so....if we ever meet again......either u come say hi....or u just continue hide lar...either way.....it's not my problem anymore.....BYE~!!!

I need a doctor lyrics Dr Dre ft Eminem and Skylar Grey

RIot in the country!!!

OMG...today pratically is 9/7/2011.... a day that most citizen should remember in Malaysia...cause it's the bersih 2.0...where ppl wants their pilihan raya to be clean ....not dirty...meaning that....pay ppl or doing something to vote for them...ppl are making a statement n riot about it.....omg.....road were block or closed most of the time...having those spot check ....WTF...luckily my place in kampar wasn't effected....peace today....n the most sad is....government is unable to settle this issue....they the police even act violence.....this is the most sickest part the gov ever did to the citizen.....i mean like...don't they have a better way to do this....can the prime minister handle this situation better rather than running away n act dunno....F**k him lar....such a coward bastard...wht a cow...lembu betul....n some elderly even go out to support this event..aunty n uncle really support wht the fact that our country is facing...wht does this prove??..this proves that...Malaysia really having some dipshit lar....the citizen can see it so clearly but why not the gov....they still pretend everything have never happen....n still they hiding it from the public...shame on u...shame on the country leaders...shame to be born as a malaysian.....i'm not judging my nationality ...infact....this country reputation is getting worst n worst nowadays.....really can take the feeling of close one eyes to see things sometimes...really felt bad....

anyhow...more bullshit is....n i bet after u heard this...u will feel shame on the country policemen......the story begin with a girl(ms.x) and her foreign bf (mr.Y)so...they are on the way to KLIA today....on the way to the airport....they have experience 4 roadblock....*wao.....today all policemen working hard a....not only face the public riot...but also keep blocking the road here n there...really free hor..n also a gud time to earn money for raya as well....*

so...during the 2nd roadblock at a certain place...the police stop them and ask for mr.Y driving license....well...apparently..mr.Y is a foreigner from morroco and he holds an international driving license....n who the hells know that malaysia canot use international driving license...got such law ar??KNS betul... n so ms.X apologize to the police n state that they are in a rush to KLIA n doesn't know that international driving license can't be used in MALAYSIA!!!
the police then tell.."so..u want to make it in easier way or the hard way? u gonna pay rm 300 for the hard way"...Ms.X then reply "okok...wait"...then she went to get her RM 50 n pass to the police cause this is how malaysia police works....
Mr.Y was pissed off when he sees this....he then bang the boot and get into the car.... that police then ask ms.X "wht wrong with him, is he alright....??" MS.X then bravely ans the police that..."because there are not corruption in morroco or french!!!" then ms.X leaves with the bf.....both local n non local are not happy with the situation...cause the police is finding a lame excuse for make something up to earn money for raya....WTF.....

because Ms.X n Mr.Y are in the hurry....n so they have to bribe the police in order to get to their destination as soon.....if not...that police would be in deepshit jor....in this case....we can feel that....malaysia is getting deeper in bribery till makes the public disappointing in the gov....doing this infront of a foreigner proves wht....??? image gone...n most important....others country knew that the malaysia police is gud in asking bribe....

Emo~~

2moro noon ald got consumer behavior midterm test...but sudd very emo..cause homesick...miss everyone at home...miss my friend at seremban...wish to see them.......i wanted love...but still not yet found the right one in life...i'm very lonely....i cry for no reason.....i dunno why...when it comes to silence ...i might scared ppl about it...when it comes happiness...i bring alot of joy n fun...T.T...i suffer myself....i try my best but sometimes i feels stress....i emo now....who can change that n help me????

joey yung-sau san gei(容祖兒- 搜神記 ) cantonese subtitle lyrics

当初肤浅 得你恩宠似圣仙 天有眼

DONG CHOH FOO CHIN, DAK NEI YAN CHUNG CHI SING SIN, TIN YAU NGAAN

当真糊涂 未曾发觉我该俯瞰南极快没有冰山

DONG JAN WOO TO, MEI CHANG FAAT GOK NGOH GOI FOO MUK NAAM GIK FAAI MOOT YAU BING SAAN

当初专心等你烛光晚餐 从没有认识蜡烛怎样消散
DONG CHOH JUEN SAM DANG NEI JUK GWONG MAAN CHAAN

从没有认识蜡烛怎样消散

CHUNG MOOT YAU YING SIK LAAP JUK JAM YEUNG SIU SAAN

当你的光环 暗过世间火柴 何用困在五指山

DONG NEI DIK GWONG WAAN, AM GWOH SAI GAAN FOH CHAAI, HOH YUNG KWAN JOI NG JI SAAN

疑神蹟失灵才知天大地大转得快

YI SAN JIK SAT LING CHOI JI TIN DAAI DEI DAAI JUEN DAK FAAI

梦幻的生涯无非拖手逛街怪得谁

MUNG WAAN DIK SANG NGAAI MO FEI TOH SAU GWAANG GAAI, GWAAI DAK SUI

要敬拜你便没视力渐观世态

YIU GING BAAI NEI, BIN MOOT SI LIK JIM GOON, SAI TAAI

忘掉谁是你 记住我亦有自己见地

MONG DIU SUI SI NEI, GEI JUE NGOH YIK YAU JI GEI GIN DEI

无论你几高 身价亦低过青花瓷器

MO LUN NEI GEI GO, SAN GA YIK DAI GWOH CHING FA CHI HEI

评核我自己 只顾投资於爱情

PING HAT NGOH JI GEI, JI GOO TAU JI YUE NGOI CHING

困在你小宇宙损失对大世界的好奇

KWAN JOI NEI SIU YUE JAU SUEN SAT DUI DAAI SAI GAAI DIK HO KEI

回味谁是你 往日有甚麽品味

WOOI MEI SUI SI NEI, WONG YAT YAU SAM MOH BAN MEI

只要敢远飞 亦能自创我的搜神记

JI YIU GAM YUEN FEI, YIK NANG JI CHONG NGOH DIK SAU SAN GEI

磨练我自己 做人目光高过聚散分离

MOH LIN NGOH JI GEI, JO YAN MUK GWONG GO GWOH JUI SAAN FAN LEI

就凭你 相爱大不了提昇演技当做戏

JAU PANG NEI, SEUNG NGOI DAAI BAT LIU TAI SING YIN GEI DONG JO HEI

从前只懂情人的感动力量 最珍贵

CHUNG CHIN JI DUNG CHING YAN DIK GAM DUNG LIK LEUNG, JUI JAN GWAI

未洞悉小巷大街竞技华丽 昂起头

MEI DUNG SIK SIU HONG DAAI GAAI PIN DEI WA LAI, NGONG HEI TAU

看见世界我也会有我的气势 wow oh~

HON GIN SAI GAAI, NGOH YA WOOI YAU NGOH DIK HEI SAI, WOW OH~

抛开你先识去审美 往後我便有自己见地

MONG DIU SUI SI NEI, GEI JUE NGOH YIK YAU JI GEI GIN DEI

无论你几高 身价亦低过青花瓷器

MO LUN NEI GEI GO, SAN GA YIK DAI GWOH CHING FA CHI HEI

评核我自己 只顾投资於爱情

PING HAT NGOH JI GEI, JI GOO TAU JI YUE NGOI CHING

困在你小宇宙损失对大世界的好奇

KWAN JOI NEI SIU YUE JAU SUEN SAT DUI DAAI SAI GAAI DIK HO KEI

回味谁是你 往日有甚麽品味

WOOI MEI SUI SI NEI, WONG YAT YAU SAM MOH BAN MEI

只要敢远飞 亦能自创我的搜神记

JI YIU GAM YUEN FEI, YIK NANG JI CHONG NGOH DIK SAU SAN GEI

磨练我自己 做人目光高过聚散分离

MOH LIN NGOH JI GEI, JO YAN MUK GWONG GO GWOH JUI SAAN FAN LEI

就凭你 相爱大不了提昇演技当做戏

JAU PANG NEI, SEUNG NGOI DAAI BAT LIU TAI SING YIN GEI DONG JO HEI

抛开你先识去审美 往後我便有自己见地

PAAU HOI NEI SIN SIK HUI SAM MEI, WONG HAU NGOH BIN YAU JI GEI GIN DEI

无论爱几高 身价亦低过青花瓷器

MO LUN NGOI GEI GO, SAN GA YIK DAI GWOH CHING FA CHI HEI

评核我自己 只顾投资於爱情

PING HAT NGOH JI GEI, JI GOO TAU JI YUE NGOI CHING

困在你小宇宙损失看大世界的福气

KWAN JOI NEI SIU YUE JAU SUEN SAT HON DAAI SAI GAAI DIK FUK HEI

回味谁是你 往日有甚麽品味

WOOI MEI SUI SI NEI, WONG YAT YAU SAM MOH BAN MEI

只要敢远飞 亦能自创我的烟花纪

JI YIU GAM YUEN FEI, YIK NANG JI CHONG NGOH DIK YIN FA GEI

谁是我自己 若然目光高过聚散分离

SAU SI NGOH JI GEI, YEUK YIN MUK GWONG GO GWOH JUI SAAN FAN LEI

奉承你 因往日双眼无珠不停放大你

FUNG SING NEI, YAN WONG YAT SEUNG NGAAN MO JUE BAT TING, FONG DAAI NEI

想快乐不靠神蹟 才懂创世纪

SEUNG FAAI LOK BAT KAAU SAN JIK, CHOI DUNG CHONG SAI GEI

sucker all about himself...

the sucker i'm gonna talk about....is the sucker i know last time....hmm...wht shud i describe him......talks alots......obsessed with himself...think he is always rite....act like an angel when he is not barely even close....n talk bad about ppl behind them....wht a friend...i really prefer not to have any contact with him...not even a single hi if i could....but then...why should i really care wht this person up to....he don't respect me as a friend in the past....he talks bad about me....as i'm in love in him....lol...hello...don't day dream lar.....ppl treat u good abit...u say ppl like u....n tell other ppl ...there is a bitch in ur life......so dreamy ar??? u think u have a good quality posses about urself?? the ANS would be 10000000000000000000000000times of NO!!!!!!...suck that mr.teh....
yup...that's rite....suck that up....no ppl would like to care shit about u anymore.....o0o.....if ur dad still alive...he would be very dissapointed in u son~!!!!.. U r like son of a bitch......oh....don't screw ur mama....screw urself for being that mean to ur friend.....
anyhow....why am i so piss with this fellor is totally over...but somehow...as a friend....i wouldn't be that care about the past......u hurt my feelings as a friend once....never gonna happen again.....or maybe i shud let u feel wht u did to others last time huh.....

oh well....really not gonna talk about him till he send me a msg in fb....hey....how r u...
n of course being a polite n generous person...u would reply him...n wht u know the next minute...he will call u up...n fake the whole process....asking how about u...then would be likely asking the person that he wants to know lar.....he don't even barely care that much de lar...all those thing he's talking about was such a lie in my eyes.....telling how he wanna help ppl lar....says that he is like a victim in love lar.....as if he have done nothing wrong to others like that...n still pretend that he is still rite huh....LOL....wht a big joke for me...
during the phone call...i can't barely stand to sai him 99.....most of the time...is he talk....n talk..n talk n keep talking....hello....i don't owe the world to u...n u don't have to tell me all ur crappy stuff lar wei.....u know i know lar....even if u don't know ...u can check up my blog n suck that up mr.teh......
ur are so annoy ...n don't have a value in life...n u don't stand as a friend in my heart....i never hope u would call n meet me up...cause u know lar...that i'm a bitch that appear in ur life....n would just wanna talk bad about.....i ain't gonna let that happen.....
but y am i being so mean huh?? i don't use to be like that.....
oh...i remember....i always hurt by someone i care...n in the end....i become like this...thanks for turning me as a mean person.......
LOL....sorry for the little tiny meany person that appear in ur life mr.teh...now suck that up...n go to rehab.....wish u all the best....

getting fit~~!!!

it's been 3 weeks since my Year1 Sem2 start.....n i have been cycling to school most of the time...besides that....also been practicing my dance...n also join wushu club......when i'm back in seremban..many friends says that i have been fit.....muscle starting to build up a little...OMG......hahaha...anyways...that's just part of losing weight n gaining muscle...hope i can continue wht i have plan about...: lose weight!!!!

muscle pain.....

it's finally over.....hahaha...the dance practice for few days n hours consecutively have finally over we have finally performed it.......now can finally focus on my assignment n probably shud be start doing it.....n very happy also....cause this weekand get to go back to seremban to spend my time...wahahah......hmm.....anyways...i still doubt whether my choices are right or not...cause i enter wushu club......which i found out that the kicking ur leg up high was kinda hard for me...or maybe because it's been a long time since my karate....hahaha....but still....i love to sweat....sweat is gud for my health n also because i wanna stay fit.....n look slim so that i can wear clothes that i wan.....hmm...i will take it slowly......cause i wan to lose weight in a gud way...not a fast way.....cause it will never works.....in the end...i really end up having muscle pain lately...argh....pain here n there.....=.=''llll

somehow...there's still something in mind....thinking that....when am i going to meet up my prince charming???.....i really feel like wanting someone to take care of me sometimes....n don't care too much about body figure lar.....someone i can tolerate n communicate with....someone i can hug n cuddle.....someone affectionate.....i really envy ppl can get...but y not me??? perhaps it's isnt time...or perhaps my condition is that bad n don't deserve love by anyone.... or maybe i set my expectations too high???....in the end of the day...i will still say ...haihz.....all those experience about love that i can tell but it's not me .......it's kinda shameful...n of course it's kinda awkward when ppl ask wht relationship are u in....over n over again......it's kinda boring to live this kinda life sometimes.....still...i need my freedom to do wht i wanted...n someone to collab with me.....hahah......hard to find that person that can do that.....but still...hopefully i can meet someone like that.....

nice guys finish last...

a song sing by a youtuber....nice voice..n that vid is featuring kev jumba n niga higa....

2moro evening going back to kampar lu.....

haihz...although result wasn't that good......but still have to continue study...next sem really must study hard....if not...bad stuff will be happen in life n i dunno wht exactly i shud do.....no one shud be blame...cause it's myself who fail to complete my life task........
once again....have enjoy myself enough with entertainment...wahaha...but still not enough.......don't feel like leaving seremban..but wht to do...no choice......but i will be back soon b4 i even know it...wahaha...since the ticket price are cheap....rn24 for student price..i can get back often too..wahahaha...but...still need to save up to pay my study bills for the next sems...

urh.....wht shud i be???

questioning about the question that's been on my mind....wht shud i really be....??? wht shud i really act????
these questions poops up in my mind when one of my friends tell me to stop act cute that way....=.=''lllllll.......actually sometimes i'm kind like that...it's very hard to change something that's u....n pretend not u all the time....y ppl canot understand that part??? to hard to understand isit???? really left me speechless......making me feel that confuse about my characteristic...cause really dunno who i shud be.......oh dear......who can tell me.....??

i'm home...

indeed...my year 1 sem 1 have ended.......after all the stressful exams...i'm able to go back my own hometown....chilling...relaxing...doing stuff that i want.....nice......soon....29th need to go back to start my sem 2 ler.....sad...i wish i have more time to spend with everyone...wahaha....n i misses someone too....he's not there ald....i hope we can meet each other again if we have chance.....

end of 1st sem moro....

haha...2moro is gonna be a big big day...after IS paper...i will go home...wahahaha....damn excited n happy.........so..today will be studying...cleaning...tidying n packing..i will be heading home 2moro after exam....wahaha...home sweet home....

QT oh QT~!!!!...

yup....today is saturday...n i don't feel like it.....cause need to go uni to take a damn hard test...which i hope i would not fail on it........praying...hoping i would pass.....don't feel like wastin money for all these papers...really expensive...not afford to pay much.....damn......btw....finally.....few more days left....then i will be heading my way back home....wohoo......can't wait can't wait.....there's a bunch of list in my min that need to be done....wahaha.....yum cha.....hang out.....cinemas....starbuck.....sing k.....clubbing...racing cars(hmm....maybe not....i retired from it d...)wahahaha.....

to my DeAR friend~~

dun get into temper all the time...it's not worth it.....i know it's easy to say but hard to control.....but...pls think..pls be aware...when u in the anger mood....will if affect others as well??? do u think others ppl mood went down too because one of ur little temper out of control.....???yes...it will do...ur surrounding de ppl can feel it....y not cool down n calm down n think....."i'm old enough ald...i have seen this alot of times ald..i have face it alot times ald....y not do it in a diff way in handling my emotions???? don't say NO or can't to urself when u didn't even try!!!!....DON'T Give Up easily!!!!...... always think.....not for urself but for others as well......anger will just lead to an unhappy situation in life....but also affect others ppl in your life....think before u act....control when it happen....try not to dramatize ur life....we are suppose to do a revolution of life ...making it better....not making it worst....even sometimes when things happen...think positive abit....don't make it like a big matter although u think it is.....nothing u facing now is a bigger matter than other ppl....why ppl can handle the same matter as u did without putting their anger in??? because they are diff ppl??? NO....u don't say that to urself.....we r the same....only see whether u wan to accept the challenge anot....whether u can do it anot.....don't say NO....say YES......just remember every action u make will lead in others ppl life as well.....CONTROL pls~~!!!!.......even though things happen...y not say..."hmm...haha....this have happen in the previous time...it's not gonna affect me like the ways it was last time.......i'm way better handle this..."....remember things keeps happen again n again .....the way u handle it...the anger u put in will still be the same..if u don't intend to face the problem proper.....

Labour day 2011

1st....wanna wish ppl who are working...happy labour day.......today was a day full of wondering n unexpected things happen.....hahaha...... 1st....i didn't get a gud well sleep as like usual.....i slept at 4am in n was waken by some noises on the ceiling.....damn u ceiling......hahaha......it's was like 7.50 like that......then...i really beh tahan with the noise which have been making for the past 30 min.....F**K.......then i go ask my opposite house mate whether she heard noises from upstairs anot...or from the home besides.....then she say No....she ask me go sleep back lar.....been insomnia too much jor...illusion over...wahahah....maybe not.....then wake up n get ready to go kaikan for the 6th anniversary at kampar here......then.....went back home...watch a movie....grab come juices from the fridge.......then have a little chat with my new housemates.....then went to back.....
a moment later.....2 hours after tht.....guess wht.....i'm still sleeping....n sudd someone calling my name softly....like a ghost calling....lol....then i wake up...cause i think it's the new housemate calling for help...so ...i open my door...saw my opposite housemate.....then she say....someone call us...hear???? i say yea....maybe is Jscy....maybe she saw a cockroach or something....scared gua....let's go see.....then when we reach there....she tell us that she is trap in the room......OMG......did she lock herself???NO...... the door just happens to be spoil.....swt.....=.=''ll....god....even me can't fix it...unless broke it...but...somehow....we call for the hotline for help.....well...they came...but the person say.....today's labour day....i'm not even sure whether there's ppl which can fix that door...lol....funny dao.....but then luckily....the room next to her is empty...n there's a joint bathroom at the room...so....she have to get out from there......haha......but then not long after that....the hotline man come back again...with the helper....got the door open n fix alittle...but they say no spare parts....still have to look for maintenance ppl to fix it.......=.=''llllll......lame........haha....so...that's the end.....
eh no....not yet.....by 7 something at night...i heard some noises....opening the door n going upstairs...i taught JSCY come back from dinner.....but then...she told me she just come back.....WTF....who have come back then???? LOL.......mai lame lar Evian...scared ppl...wahaha.....but that's the facts.......OMG.....have i been illusion-ing too much???? isit cause if insomnia???

Cats N DOgs rain, thunder, flooded, black out n Exams 2moro!!!!!

rainy days.... i'm on may way to dinner...

see how it's so flooded at the road to new town...

these are my marketing 14 chapters de mnd map...takes sometimes n effort to do n understand this...

the road flooded infront of my house...

lol...i guess the title have says it all.....about 5.30pm today...i was still cycling around the neighborhood....but then when i starts to rain...i get back home quickly...then..looking at the time...it's was 5.45 like that.....the rains starting to rain heavily n heavily.....then the lightning n thunder comes at the same times....boom....boom....bamm.....the sounds keep coming non-stop....wahlaoe....scary leh......then soon..the whole westlake housing area also out of electricity.....after that....i think for about 15 mins.....u can ald see the road front of the house was ald flooded....hmmm....u can wonder other places are getting worst also.....since we can't do anything.....we have our girls talks........hahaha...luckily someone are still at home.....not so scary.....roughly about more than 30 mins...the rain starting to slow down.... i even fold a paper ship to get ready to release at our house infront....hahaha........then standing at the car porch...look outside.....seeing cars pass by....times flies by 6.45 lu..........then thinking to buy dinner...cause almost 7 jor.....thanks to one of the housemate who invite her to go dinner with her.....when passing through the main road....absolutely...u can see it's flooded.....can see how terrible this heavy rains does........then we reach old town n eat that delicious chicken pot.....erm...nice nice..not bad.....seremban didn't sell it......hahaha.... then by 8pm...we went home lu.....n thank god....electricity have come......can study for my 1st paper of finals 2moro which is at 9 am...i hope i can answer all the question correctly n achieve a high mark for it....i really put effort in this marketing....hahaha...work hard...but not hard enough...but i guess i still deserve to get a good marks.......1st sem...it's gonna end by 11 may 2011...lol....

wish me luck ppl.....!!!!

Exams coming this friday....

lol...finally i'm gonna have an exam back...well...it's my 1st test in uni since i left school 1 year ago.....hmm....quite feel stress about it....but it's kinda ok cause everybody have it rite....so..no big deal...still can cope with it......hopefully i can answer all the question n do well in it.....*pray*.....hmm...quite anticipated for the last day of my 1st sem paper......cause it means it's the day which i'm going back seremban.....yahoo...~~!!!! superb.....can't wait to meet all my friends in seremban...miss them damn much.........let's us gambateh for this exam bah....

haha...finally i have submit my ptptn.....

haha...so glad that i have finally submit my ptptn forms......ahh....after waiting for 4 months...they have come to collect it....worst time ever....cause...i have to wake up early..n i'm having trouble wif sleep again......damn......i sleep at 4am....n keep waking at 5am for some times cause i'm just too tired...n decided to wake at 6am...then prepare myself...n go uni at 6.30.....wow...once we reach there...there we ald ppl standing outside the door...which i never think there are ppl which are extremly crazy to wait this early....then when the door is open...ppl are like just running into the hall...n sit...chop places....OMG.....1st...time see this kind of thing......like anticipating an artist to arrive......well...lucky for us...the guard open the door by 7 something...so the ppl who came get to sit the front place......haha...mine wasn't that bad too....3rd row....by still walking slower...haha....
then ...we sit till 8.30 le....but still no officer come to collect or give briefing......damn them....they came at 9.45...or before 10 i guess.....then give all the details we need to fill in .........then wait for our turn.....keeping moving from chairs to chairs....from 3rd row to 2nd ...from 2nd to 1st row.....finally it's my turn....hmmm.....standing there feeling awkward cause i'm wearing my real madrid jersey...LOL.......haha...but then...quite happy...cause don't have any problem at all...n i finish all those in 11.45 like that....argh....damn tired...but felt relieved cause it's finally over.......wahahaha...no need to worry much jor...just wait for them to finalize the things all...n i dun have to worry for my next sem payment......keke....

i love puppy....

puppies are so cute.....i mean the small bread are damn cute.....argh.....love them so much........i wanted to get one...but i don't think i will have much time to take care of it...n it's very expensive as well...hmm...last time dad use to promise me to buy one....but till now also haven't get....sienz lar.....haihz...i think having a puppy will cheer me up since i'm always alone in kampar.....got puppy wun so sienz....can play with it n teach it play new tricks....n most important.....accompany me when i'm sad......hopefully can get one ....toy poddle, pomeranian, shih tzu are the most common cute puppy that i ever wanted...>.<...

oh fellors......

some fellors really caught my attention.....aww.....they are cute......handsome....n funny weh......wahahaha....i really had a gud times with them.....btw...dun think so much ...nothing happen...just want to share my happiness......
hmm...as my progress for slimming so far....erm...i don't even know whether i gain weight or lose weight...wahaha....but i think got lose abit lar...since my jeans got a little lose jor....wahaha......hmmm...need to keep up sin...if not back that time.....no progress....some ppl will ejek de....hahaha.......so far...till now...i have been cycling....dancing n badmintoning.....wwow.....sioknyer.......wahahaha.....i wanna be diff when it comes to 2nd sem....i don't wanna lose anymore........i wanna be oustanding...n outrageous in some point.....to achieve in that something...i really need to put more effort in it....although this might be a hard rocky road....who knows tht i might just can do it if i not give up.......n i do it just for the hurts n bad words that ppl have been saying about urself....really can't tahan lar weh.......hmmm.....need to keep a good promise at myself that i can do it....n dun give up.....

ouch~!!!....it's hurt....

lol...it's time of the month where u get emo again......i'm super sad ...because this issues have been ald a month in my heart.......the feeling is just not right....i'm so hurt.....all this thanks to a bunch of suckers which have been boycotting me......well how does it actually start??? i don't really know ...all i know was....
one day...i overslept...n no one ever wake me up ...no wake up call from my friends....i end up rushing to my friends car....looking bit messy.........in the car...there's no ppl talking....was i mad?? em...maybe abit...but i didn't ask the reason why she didn't call......i just ignore wht happen...cause it's not a big deal also.....wht i could believe was....for a few consecutive days....they have been ignoring me as well...i was get to left behind all the times...n they wouldn't even wait me....WTH..!!!!! so...i bring up my courage to ask one of my bestie in the group...i ask her wht happen....isit i do something wrong that piss u guys off....??? her ans was no....she only told me tht...they are just being stressed for their midterm......... okay....at first i was thinking so...but as a few weeks past....they really did wht in their mind was thinking kay... wht i tought really come true......even when they set their semester 2 timetable....they didn't even ask me to join in......infact....they let me saw that they ald set their timetable........n let me as invisible.....i dun even dare or wanted to ask....cause as i know....if they wan me to join...they would ald ask me to join the...but no...nothing have been tell ....argh....i can't believe that they can treat me like this.....even the bestie that i have know here also have been treating the same way too......i really unliking them...especially my bestie...after doing so much thing for her....she didn't even appreciate it.....she just dumb me aside....lol.....now only i know that i'm just a toy in their eyes.... this case have ald been a month....it's so hard to go through it....argh....hate it when i'm having my p.m.s too....makes me more emo.....but.....i have cheer myself up...thanks for my bro n CMY that have talk to me....i felt relieve abit...oh ya...n also thanks to brian n teng that have chat wif me about this issue too...dun worry guys.....i wun do anything stupid...i just need ur encouragement.....i love u guys...oh...btw....thanks to the dance club members too...really happy get to know u guys....n i love dancing....wahahaha