i really couldn't believe that he has gone....gone forever in my life.....but right in my heart i still can remember his smile....although many things happens....mostly that are bad n kinda influence me....but i still love him...no matter wht ...i'm still his little girl~!!!...
the day of 11/12/2011 10:45pm.... the day he gone....the time he pass away......
i'm really heartbroken n sad....i actually couldn't accept the fact that he is really not there....i really miss him...but it's very hard for me now...i wish i was back lately....saw him...but i have no longer have the chance to do it...... but i still get to hear his voice few days ago....
i'm really heartbroken n sad....i actually couldn't accept the fact that he is really not there....i really miss him...but it's very hard for me now...i wish i was back lately....saw him...but i have no longer have the chance to do it...... but i still get to hear his voice few days ago....
i CAN'T Sleep~!!!!!! many flash back appear in my mind....all those gud childhood memory.....those time that we play....funny things that happen n many things....n i even can't accept that he broke his promise once again.....the promise of staying healthy n watch me graduate from university.....it kinda broke my heart when he can't do it.....right in my mind i was hoping that when i finish uni...we would take a family pictures again...but he can't do it anymore..........plus he actually could have celebrated his birthday on this month on 30/12...but he couldn't make it.....my brother and i was thinking to have a reunion dinner or something like that ...but he's not there ald.....
mostly sad.....next year chinese new year suppose to be happy....it suppose to be a wonderful start......n of course it was my birthday too.....he was suppose to celebrate for me also.....but....but.....
right now.....i'm scared to face ppl i'm about to meet this tuesday......they will give their condolences....but i really hard to accept the fact of his death....n with the aunts all coming to his funeral....would i be able to hold my tears???? i really can't ......in fact.... have been crying from since i heard when he was having difficulty in breathing.......n it's hard for me to sleep n not to think wht have happen ......i really can't think of anything but cry n think of my dearest dad........
I LOVE YOU DAD~~!!! R.I.P.......u will be born in a better family....
No comments:
Post a Comment