how you think will reflect on how you do it~

 if this was the reflection of  your life...how would u think??

at this hour of time....hmm...5.10 am in the morning to blog it out.....means i have something in my mind...something that bothers me that, i can't even make a correct judgement anymore.... i admit, i'm not happy and can be emotional sometimes...but i'm trying my best to overcomes those mistakes..... life is fragile....wht is life about?? food, shelter and protection and also affection as well...

n well i'm not good in dealing with my emotions when it comes to affection. would u even think that you are stupid enough to be fool ....it's really up to you actually...quotes such as "to be or not to be"....... u can be the one fooling or get fool about it...but, why do u wanna get involve in fooling one another...it's a funny thing happen in a human...when u know someone makes mistakes....can u actually really forgive them?? the ans would be YES....Y? cause our heart are fragile enough.... i bet everyone makes mistakes....i remember one of my lecturer says... mistakes are part of being human... u can choose to forgive...u can choose to forget...but .....  human will still make the same mistakes over and over again unconsciously.... i dare not to say myself to be perfect and do no mistakes....instead i think my mistakes was being naive to believe something that would change....i'm willing to put in all the time....to wait for the miracle to happen....put high hopes in it... but it would always not up to my expectations... OR i could say.... NOT EVEN CLOSE..... to believe is a gud thing....but when reality hits u up.... things that you believe will gone disappear.... because u can't control ppl actions and behavior, therefore we only will be ended with break downs.... phew....wht a miserable life you can say..... another quotes here... " fool me once shame on you, fool me twice shame on me" ....

Now  think again...when a person did a mistakes...it's really worth giving them a chance to prove they could rebound  it??? Chances are , why not give it a try...... hmmm...sounds like a gud idea..... then problem is....
A wound would still be a wound...no matter how hard u try to forget the past...it still happen before....n wound could be heal with those positive thinking n time of course...if the one who make mistakes really try hard to fix it, the wound would heal ....... but wht if they don't??? ans would be....OUCH~!!! You hurt me again~!!!.....u open up the wound n put more pain on it.... i know it felt bad when shits happen~.... and by this point, your trust towards that person will be re- evaluate again.... maybe it was a mistakes of your own to give this person a chance....but at the same time it could also deepen the pain.....

BUT think again ..... these thing u having are just part of being human.....chinese proverbs always say... life is about sweetness~, sourness~ bitterness~ , and also spiciness ~ being human is not easy sometimes.... therefore we need to go through 3 elements that we don't like .... because it's just part of life.... n thru this... some might have grown up... but some are heading to the wrong direction...making it worst when they don't realize it.....n so...my conclusion is.... don't overtake it....just loosen it up...life are NOT meant to be living in this way.... so wht if u really get hurt....??? when you think back again....you might thank them up for giving an experience in life....to make you stronger n tougher when facing these situations... i'm not an expert either...but at least i get the point n try to make a better thought of it.... positive thinking will of course lead to a positive outcome....although it might not be up to our expectations, but it will still be good enough... my last quotes here...: HOW you Think will Reflect on How YOU would do it~!!!!....

nite ppl....XOXO~

my different night mares~!!!

last time when i was small till i was in secondary high school...i used to have this night mares that comes to me ...the same old night mares that make me crying waking up...i used to hate this person in the past...but when he'gone...it doesn't matter anymore.....cause i Love him deeply...n nothing is more matter for this loss...

this times....another night mares strikes me....i don't feel that good at all.....it's was indeed more depress facing this kind of dreams....it keep repeating that....i remember every single details....it just makes me even more worried when i sleep...it was about going back my home....n saw it was dark at the time...n my mum keep going out although the surrounding was dark....it's was creepy....n i all know was...i need to take gud care of her...i need to protect her from danger....protect my mum from those bad guys.....i feel scared when my brother was not there to help....it was only me n mum....my responsible have been added... phew.....it was indeed tougher than i thought it would be....looking back at the life tht i'm having now.....i'm still in university...n it become more pressure when i'm haven't completing my study yet......it's still a long way to go before i start earning money......haihz.....was it a burden to my brother ??? i hope not so.....since papa gone...he's be the main contributor in this family...i hope to help him instead of giving him burden.....but...thinking positively...my mum always wanted her children to be a graduate from the uni...n i'm just living with it..n try to realizing her dreams......

wht i learn in Buddhism today..

it's was indeed a great lessons today....i learn something else...n also get to charge electric too by going for chanting meeting...it's been a long time since i absent....most of the time due to my busy schedule for doing assignment...worrying my mum and also waiting for someone to always shows up which he didn't any way....

wht i learn in Buddhism today was that....everyone have 10 values in them....n the last value is to become the Buddha...now...don't get me wrong...Buddha do appear in everyone...Buddha is not some god that have seen most of the times in the temple....according to the old story that i have read....Buddha was formerly a human too...just like anyone of us...his story was much more interesting than anyone could face....facing those toughest challenges was indeed hard....even me...might have the courage and wits to face it...i admit...that i have my own weakness too....well...soft heart was one of my characteristic...but some ppl just like to misuse it...hmm...well...ppl like these...we shud really forgive them....they are just one of the obstacle that appear in our life...why would wanna stay unhappy n nag about it..why not forget about it...

Buddha can do it...why can't we??? it's hard to follow all the 10 values n principles in life...but...we still can be Buddha...just don't forget wht they thought us...n apply it to the ppl who need more guidance...no matter how hard our life get....we still can go through it with our sense of rationality...dun let the subconscious to control our mind to did wht is wrong but instead doing the right thing..... everyone makes mistake....so...just forgive them...even our self did one too...just admit it....everyone does....Buddha was no exception...he's no perfect too...but through his guidance and experience...he realize it n enhance this to be better....open up their mind....move to the different level of thinking....the thinking of conscious...rationality....the other point of view....nothing can be as negative as we thought...when times pass by...we will just realize that...the past are nothing but an experience to makes us grew stronger and tougher ...n of course with more rationality...