since a few months ago ...... i think i have lost track wht my life should be....wht my goals were..... i have never been so miserable in this state that i totally lost the happiness that i had before....i'm unable to have a sincerely happy smile in photos....even with the smile in it...one of my friends notice...why are you faking a smile ...why no mood????
i really dunno how to explain to him....n so it keep it in my heart and bury it deep down...... maybe it's all those disappointment that i always get..... maybe all those high hopes that i have kept are not meant to be happen in my life...... n so ...i lost faith and hopes that may happen.... maybe i'm feeling that growing old...n i feel no longer youthful as before
Seriously...i don't even know wht's wrong with me and have no idea how to gain back all those happy feelings that i have once own before..... those feelings are just completely vanish and the ability to smile like the girl i used to be is completely disappear~
Perhaps i need time to find it back????
